کتاب the world i live in رو امروز تموم کردم. بعدش دوباره بالاخره برگشتم سر کتاب "آگاهی" و دیگه ایندفعه امیدوارم پشت سر هم بخونمش. خب اوائل کتاب در مورد این صحبت میکنه که "من" چیه و آیا اصلاً همچین منی وجود داره یا نه. یاد یه بخشی از اون کتاب اولی افتادم. هلن کلر در مورد تجربه قبل از دونستن "کلمه" اینجوری مینویسه : 

BEFORE my teacher came to me, I did not know that I am. I lived in a world that was a no-world. I cannot hope to describe adequately that unconscious, yet conscious time of nothingness. I did not know that I knew aught, or that I lived or acted or desired. I had neither will nor intellect. I was carried along to objects and acts by a certain blind natural impetus. I had a mind which caused me to feel anger, satisfaction, desire. These two facts led those about me to suppose that  I willed and thought. I can remember all this, not because I knew that it was so, but because I have tactual memory. It enables me to remember that I never contracted my forehead in the act of thinking. I never viewed anything beforehand or chose it. I also recall tactually the fact that never in a start of the body or a heart-beat did I feel that I loved or cared for anything. My inner life, then, was a blank without past, present, or future, without hope or anticipation, without wonder or joy or faith.

نمیدونم تهش به کجا میرسم. فقط خواستم تا یادم نرفته اینو ثبت کنم.